Leave The "Driving" To Us (Part 1)

The end of the week approached quickly as I adjusted to life at my Mother's house. I had played a lot of card games, checked my email incessantly, and waited for the call from my boo nightly... I thought of all these things as I said good-bye to my Mom. I thought of our fights and our laughter. The smell of Burger-King was thick in the air (it was downtown Detroit afterall). I reached over to hug her before i left to get my luggage out of the back of her SUV. I told my little sister good-bye a final time before I headed home. I tried to wave as I made eye contact with my Mom but my hands were full. I hope she saw my eyes and realized how hard it was. I don't know why it was so heart wrenching for me. We hadn't had a particularly amazing time. It was a positive experience, though.


I walked up to the information desk and had my bag checked. Ecerything was going smoothly. I waited patiently in a corner for my bus to arrive. I leaned on a pillar. My bus arrived and I got in line to have my ticket checked and board the bus. I gave my luggage to the attendent and walked on with my carry on. I looked for a seat. The aisle was littlered with people putting their luggage in the overhead compartment. I picked a sear near the forward of the bus and took a refreshing breath of air as we left on time.

I started to read my new book and magazine. Before I knew it we were in Toledo. The bus driver got out of the bus and didnt return for at least 20 minutes. The other passengers started to get upset, "She is so rude!" and "If she can't get us there on time there are others without a job that would be willing to." I heard a clap of someone's hands and a chuckle from the back of the bus. She got back on quickly drove off while pressing on the horn twice. I just continued listening to my iPod and reading my book ignoring the others on the bus. Progress continued on my trip back to Muncie until an unforseen complication caused the bus (and my plans for the next 8 hours) to come to a screaching hault..

Detroit: A City of Love

I love going through old photos. They are so timeless. Here is my great-grandmother. She died earlier this year. The kindest person I have ever known. She never yelled, never was rude. She was always kind. A great woman.

So, I'm in Detroit with my Mother and her family. I'm enjoying being with them, catching up with all of them, but I miss my friends, my routine, and getting lucky every night. I can't wait to get dressed up tomorrow and go watch my younger siblings sing at their church. Mostly, though, I wanna wear my new clothes and look cute.

It's such a great time of year. It really is. The baking in the house is so great. We've made a lot of cookies lately, but we're going to make some some beef stroganoff for christmass. My mom is such the caring soul, though, that she talked to Mike and they are going to use Portabello Mushrooms in my batch and flavor it that way. What an awesome idea, and what a great effort. Also!! on Xmas Eve they usually graze on shrimp throughout the night, not really ever having a main course, but because I am here they are going to make an additional dish with angel hair pasta and a type of cream based sauce with capers and everything. It's going to be delicious. I'm very excited for my Christmas.

My grades were decent this semester. 3.6 Not bad for a first semester. I am satisfied, but I am determined to score higher on my next semester. My classes should be more challenging this semester too, so I am eager to get to work on it all.

I've been keeping in close contact with my boo while I'm in Detroit. He's just so special. I'm glad I have someone like him. I've been keeping close to Natty too. I adore him, so we've been texting back and forth throughout break. Whether it seems like it from how I've been talking to Natty, I am excited for the possibility of him and Steve rooming together (and even more so for the three of us during the summer times) I think it's an arrangement, with planning, that could work out very very well.

I caught up with JoAnne quickly today. I miss her so much she's so great.

I'm not sure of my New Years Plans. You know I'm doi' something with Steven. Cause I'm makin out with him once midnight hits, just not sure where. Depends if I'm in the mood to go to a party and mingle with a crowd. Not sure. We'll do something fun and random.

Speaking of random, I have some more great pics of Steve that I can't wait to show you guys. I'll put them on my facebook as soon as I can. I left my cable for my camera in my room, and if I can't find a card reader I'm going to have to wait until the 8th to access them. No matter what, I love all of you (but I love Steven more)

Have a great Holiday!!!

Love

Steven is so.... amazing. We went out tonight, and when he after he took me home we parked in my driveway. We were playing Celine Dion and gentlely making out. It was so sensual, so pure. I had half a mind to go push his head down, but I wanted to keep it special and innocent. It was beautiful. I know this seems so soon, but this is something I have never felt before. There is a confidence in this relationship. There is true love. He will be my boo forever.

Oh ! oh ! oh ! -- We went to Target to kill some time and threw a "throw pillow" up and down isles. Then I threw a bound up blanket at him and he did a little karate kick at it. lol!! It was so incredibly fun. I love when we play around. We were wrestling and talking to the cashier. lol. It was good fun. He smelled beauuuuutifullllll.

So, on my daily patrol of blogs I came across a person's blog talking about how hard it is to be friend's with mos. This really hurt me. It really annoys me how people have gay friends, and then rely on stereotypes and generalizations to characterize us. This is just as closed minded as saying it's hard to be friends with Jews because they'll always steal the rest of your Equal and Splenda packets. Come on now. It's hard being friends with people who gossip and who steal stuff, not with gays and Jews. There is a difference, you know.

Got some new dress clothes, they look hot.

I go to Detroit on Tuesday and come back the 27th. It will be great to visit my Mom, travel a bit, all that. I will miss my friends, though. Do not fear, I will be back, and ready to get to work.

I'll havea an update on my gorgeous christmas gifts soon!!

Finals

Finals is gonna be a lot easier than I thought it would be. Not that it'll be easy, just that I'll be able to get some sleep. It's true, and I'm excited about it.

I can't believe that school is nearly done (for the semester at least). Woo woo. The kids on my new floor are some great peeps. So shout outs to them.

Oh, why do people, when they have a bad day complain about the gay community at BSU? I don't understand it. I mean, yes, all communities gossip and have whores and stuff, but I contend there shouldn's be a huge classification of this gay community. Communities should be based on friendship and common interests. Not just because we have the same sexual orientation. It's kinda being like Ohhhh this Asian community at BSU. There has to be a greater connectivity, I think. Oh Well.

I have to go study. Be Good!!

Studying Was Never This Fun Before

Oh dear. Finals week is upon us and I have yet to engross myself in the constant studying needed. I am off to go study in a bit. I have a full week, but I can't wait until break. It'll be nice to take a break. Visit my Mom, etc.

Steven spent the night last night. Natty did too. It was a lot of fun hanging out with them. I have such a great time with all of them. I am glad I made this move, I get to be closer to all my friends. It's a great feeling to invite your boo over, spend the night with him, be free and open with your roommate, and even get along with people on your floor. I just feel very blessed.

So, I'm really excited. I can actually pull off a 4.0 this semester. I may not, but it is possible. I'm gonna continue to try hard. There are a few that are borderlines, so it really is dependent on my finals. I'm sure it'll all be good.

Christmas is right around the corner!! I need to go and make cards and send them out to everyone. It's getting late.

I updated the look of my blog. Hope 'yall like it. Changed the layout, the bar on top, my description, and picture. I was reading my description, and I don't know what I was thinking when I wrote it. Hell if I am easy going lol. I'm a positive person, but goddammit I am so up tight it's not even funny lol.

My grandparent's dog died, 16 years old. They are taking it pretty rough, and because they are moving in with us soon they aren't so sure that they can get another one. My Dad is allergic, afterall. He's encouraging them to look into dander-free dogs. I talked to Steven about it and he gave me a list of dogs that might work well. How adorable would it be to have a cute little Cockapoo or a Schnoodle running around the house *aw*

Lizzy

This is Lizzy. Dolly's baby. She died shortly after birth due to malpractice. I feel so horrible. She was gorgeous, and due to a fucking drunk she's dead. Fuck him.

I've been working on my final English project. I think it's going very very well. I am so excited about it. All my classes are going well. I'm going to be doing homework most of today, but my reward will come shortly. I need to do a three page paper on the progress of my english project, figure out my spring schedule at work, study for a Math quiz, do some Math homework, study for Astronomy and Psychology.

I got some great stuff yesterday. Kyle and I decorated our room for Christmas. We put some silver wrapping paper on our door, with a huge bow, and two stockings. It's hot. The crew went to Panera Bread, my first time there, and may I say, yum yum yum. I got some new clothes, lotion, a wallet, winter jacket, and a bunch of random stuff at Target. We came back to my place and Steve and I cuddled while watching Mr. and Mrs. Smith. It was pretty cute. I'd seen it already, though.

Steve just keeps blowing me away. His level of commitment and love is overwhelming. I'm going to go to get dinner in a bit, and then go watch the housewives with the crew and my boo.

It was the best of times, it was the worst of times...

Moved In

Ohhh, a gorgeous pic of Dolly. She really is a pretty dog. Poor mommy, I hope she feels good soon.

So I moved on over to Swinford. The room is a lot nicer than my previous room. I'm really excited, cause I can live here this year, next year, and if I don't get into East for the rest of the time too. It's a pretty cool place. I'm roomin' with my friend Kyle, and we decorated our door for christmas. I decorated part of my side already, it's gonna be continual process, so I'm excited.

Steven came with the crew and shopped with us. I got him a lamb and he got me a panda at Target. He is the best. Honestly, I've had doubts about every other relationship in my life. In this relationship, though, I have no doubts. I am so secure, and happy, and it just feels right. It's great. He means a lot to me.

I'm goin' up to my Mom's place for Christmas, and I just got her gift. It's so gorgeous. Custom. One of a kind. It's hot.

I am working tomorrow with Heather tomorrow, so I need to kick it. I'll update more later. I've got a lot of schoolwork to do tomorrow. A 4.0 ain't easy boo boo.

We're Going To See Horses!

So Steve and I just hung out, and I had a blast as usual. He had me offer some food for Chris, so I asked twice if he wanted anything from Taco Bell. Steven is so great. I don't get along with my brother, and he knew, and he still had me ask him to see. He's gonna be a good influence on me. I know it. We were about to watch Lion King, put it in the VCR and all that and it turns out that it was a visually impaired copy. That explains the Braille on the box. Smooth. lol. So we went to Blockbuster to check it out. Ended up getting a horribly scratched copy, and returned it to get a good copy. I was upset that they added this jank ass song to a cute part, but it was so great to watch it again. I was just amazed at how visually stunning it was for a movie in the early 90s for children. Ugh, love it. (I have a copy in the mail. I bought it. lol.) So then we started to watch The Notebook. That didn't happen though. We ended up just going for a drive. We got lattes at Starbucks (their gingerbread latte is very yummy) and then we checked out all the movies in town. I was unimpressed. lol. So he took me to see his friend's horses and place. It was so cute. Couldnt actually see the horses cause it was dark out, but it was so cute to go on a drive through the country. We talked all the way, showed up in Gaston, Camac, and even drove past JoAnne's place.

Oh! We went into the Marsh parking lot (the old Marsh) and I drove around for about 5 minutes. Parked it and everything. It was so adorable. He offered to go take me to the BMV and get me that lisence. He is so great to me. Forgive my babbling on about him all the time, but he is so great to me. So giving. So playful. I love him.

I'm gonna start finishing up my schoolwork for my break. gotta get a lot finished up! I have a B- in my psych. class, just figured it out. I am really excited. Still planning on doing the extra credit. So i can get up to 5% up. Maybe, if my next two tests go well. I could get an A- or a high B. Exciting for my GPA.

Thanksgiving Break, Thanksgiving Schmake

Ohhhh the hours of work lays ahead. I won't deny I love it... especially while listening to some classic Alanis Morissette. I can't wait for spring. I am gonna have some really awesome classes. I'm trying to finish strong. It's tough to stay as dedicated as I was in the beginning of the semester. My boo is getting me an iPod. I'm so cited. That thing will be on me at all times. mmmhmmm. So if you see me jamming out on McKinley. Be forewarned.

So my english group and I are gonna be up late -- yay. We haven't even started playing with layout. Honestly, I've still need to write some of my part. I won't have time before work, so I'll have to put some together together before we meet at the library. I don't think the process will be painful, should be great to create. The main obstacle I see is that we are going to have to find the right mix of photos and information, and organizing that efficiently. Ours is not pure photos or pure text. We still need to filter our ideas out. We're working it out.

Psychology test tomorrow. I finished typing 12 pages of notes (in 10 font) last night that I am going to study from. Ya, Imma be up late, I gotta kick ass on this test. I love it. I'll let ya know how it goes.

Quite Busy

Look what I found when I was scrolling through my pictures file (i really need to add it to iPhoto.) JoAnne, Sharon, and I were having a blast at JC Penny. lol. OMG what a great time. I miss me some JoAnne. I hope she is having a great time at UK.

Ok, So things have been quite busy for me lately. My English group has been meeting frequently, and I have tests and a lot of stuff that is due soon. I've been hanging out a lot with Natty the last couple days, which is great for me. It's fun to hang out with him, he's so cute. I went to the Basketball game, but I was bored out of my mind. I think it was because our seats were shit.

Me, Natty, Steven, Kyle, Mike, etc. are gonna go cosmic bowling tonight. I can't wait. It's gonna be so much fun. Steve and I gots to be on the same team, cause we'll kick some ass. Oh! Steve, Heather, and I saw the 4th Harry Potter. The midnight showing, Steve took me, and even got Heather's ticket as an early christmas present. He's so sweet. It was so dark!! I love the flick. Best so far. Heather is so great too! She's so supportive, and we share a lot of the same priorities - not big partiers .. that sorta stuff.

I work tomorrow, 11-4 so stop by to see me. Oh!! I got called in for jury duty. lol. how funny is that!? I haveta fill in some paperwork.

Oh, schedules became available today. I definitely to arrange some things because it will not work on t-th -- I have an 8 an 11 and like a 5 lol what the hell. So imma try to rearrange it. OK, so I probably should do some more school work tonight before I go bowling. Bye!

Courtesy

removing my last post as a courtesy till it gets resolved.

School, Work, Cleaning, Baby.

I miss Audrie!!! *hugs for Audrie* (and JoAnne as well, of course) Hopefully she is reading this on her new computer!

So, school has been pretty crazy, of course. I'm striving to finish strong. Working hard on schoolwork is hard! ;) I've been running again, and I feel great, and am proud of myself. I have had great luck with the man department lately, with getting my boo who is smart and sweet and all that. My entire last post was about him, so I won't ramble.

I spent part of my day with Natty. I was not feeling well earlier today, so I went over to his place after getting some stuff done and hung out with him. We watched some Cho, Bring It On, and Coyote Ugly. Sophisticated media, to be sure. lol. I left feeling much better, though. Not only is Natty fun to hang out with, it was good to get outta my room, and just relax for a little bit. Oh -- and Natty doesn't know how to do his hair now that it's all straight. lol. how funny.

Day before that I hung out with Steve and Kyle and all that. It was so much fun, I watched Mona Lisa Smile with Kyle (ugh, such a good movie) and went to the price is right with Steve. Oh!! I saw Caucasion Chalk Circle with Justin. It was very cute, no matter what Mike said. I thought it was good. Not great, not bad.

Imma go to sleep in a bit. cya guys!!

He Is The Best

OK, so you know who I'm talking about. He's so good to me. He's the nicest, most caring person I know. Last night, I was sad because I have this job and something at the job site is giving me a horrible allergic reaction and I am itchy all over. I was really upset because I am scratching so much in some places I am taking the skin off of me, and the doctor's office is being a bitch and he quickly offered to get a second job to work for me. Completely willing to get a second job to support me because of this. I told him no, of course, but I think that just shows how he'll do anything for me, and it makes me feel so special. He's better than any anorexic queer at BSU.
So i've got lots of homework that I need to do today. So i'mma hop into the shower and get my day started.
I just want to say, I am so blessed. I have a supportive father, man, decent grades, positive disposition... I feel like I am in a great place right now.

Roomie

When my roommate calls me Joshy it makes me giggle

He..

He calls me his 'sweet prince,' he tucks me in at night, and he can cuddle like none other. how cute is that! just fyi.

Sleep

Why can't I get to sleep on Friday nights? It's a mystery to me. I wanna go to sleep. I lay there, i just can't. I better quick, or else. I have a full day planned tomorrow.

My weekend is gonna be hella busy too, but it'll be great. I am seeing Sweeney Todd on Saturday, have a theatre meeting on Sunday, Desperate Housewives Sunday night, Studying friday night, and Sunday night, and painting all Saturday and Sunday. Hell or high water the painting has to be done by Sunday. Should be a blast. Can't wait.

My Friends

*Whores Cease Whoring

Ohhh so many things I hear about people. They're all admittedly true, and it just speaks horribly to their character. Seems like BSU is littered with whores. major. I just don't understand the desire to be a total whore. I dont mess around with someone unless we've been dating for a while. It's not satisfying to me otherwise. It's always weird after. I dunno. Must be just me.

*Whores May Commence Whoring

In other news my paper on media effects is gonna be HOT! go me.

love to all my friends

Some People!

ohhh my.

it's nice not having to freak out about school. Not that i hate it. just fun to have a break. Tonight I watched Bridget Jones's Diary with Steveo. very fun. Heesa bring Dolly over soon so i can take some pics of her in the leaves. It'll be cute. i don't have any pics of her in the sunlight. I did take a bunch today, though. they are hot hot hot. See! ^^

So I read in the paper the other day that the Senate voted down an increase in the minimum wage. got me pretty upset. It wasnt a large increase, only like to 6.35 over 18 months. Some concern is over small business. a legitamite concern. a more reasonable concern is people making enough to buy milk. how bout that. Of course it's not a problem for them, though. they voted to increase their own salary like 6 times in the last couple years. those bastards!! in the 20s and 30s minimum was like 8ish -- minimum may not need to be that - but it needs to float up to at least 6 bucks an hour. i have college to pay for, i have madonna's new cd to pay for, food too!! back me up senators!

so imma go make dinner for the family on sunday. it'll be really cute. im thinking pasta or something... not sure. i wanna do the whole meal. i havent cooked in forever since i live in the dorms now, so we'll see how that goes. i proposed that over fall break as a family we should go to a pumpkin patch or an apple orchard or something. that screams fall and would be very cute. so hopefully we'll make a day of it.

I get to catch up on my studying over fall break.!! imma get to work on my english project even more start sifting through more research and start reading and studying for psychology. this paper and test MUST kick it. i am totally getting a classically conditioned response of pleasure from studying. i associate it with good grades. lol. so i dont mind studying anymore. imma embrace it! lol. be good guys

dont forget -- godfather marathon on monday!!

When I Think of You.. I Touch Myself

Ugh!! great song. I am lovin it.

gonna go to a party tonight - a stoplight party. how fun. but i dont have the proper colors so I am just gonna go lookin cute. I was supposed to be studying right now. lol. I'll just haveta study all day saturday and sunday. That'll be plenty. Just gotta be on task this weekend.... yes. im off to shave. be good

Fall Air

OMG -- Fall is finally here -- I just can't get enough of smelling this air. It's crisp and fresh. I love it. I'm studying for my Math Midterm right now. Definitely going to bed early tonight.

Oh - Forever Again

Hey -

it's me again! I am about to go leave to go to work, but I thought I should keep this up occasionally. Everybody else is doing it!!

So my school has been sucking up my life, it's true. Not that I hate it at all. I love it. I was up till 3 am finishing my english paper and then was excited when I got 6.5 hours of sleep. I feel so refreshed. life has certainly changed. I'm making new friends everyday, and getting along great with college life.

I have a new paper that is coming up -- I get to interview a person who is a freak about something and then research a claim they make or something, not quite sure exactly. sounds fun though... It always seems like my classes are synched. Once I have a test in one I have a test in three others all the same day. I have to take a theatre test soon, psychology test, Math midterm tomorrow, study for my astronomy midterm, and that english paper to work on. It's gonna be crazy, but I feed on it.

I'm a little disheartened about college students right now. It seems like so many get around so much. It honestly makes me sad. What they choose to do is their business, but I say right now, that once i find out that someone gets around or has a history of it I am just going to approach them carefully. I don't want that all up on me.

Oh, Steve's Grandpa isn't doing great. I feel really bad for Steve, I love him bunches. I hope everything turns out great.

Be Good Kids

Friends

Hey Guys.

Ya, damn, its been a while. Right down to the shit though.

So, I am at school, and i'm just chilling during lunch with my friends, and they try and give me shit for going out with an older guy. Basically calling him ugly - and this guy who was laying it all down is dating a person who would get drunk everynight of the week - he hasn't lately, though, to his credit. So i said i'd rather have a guy with wrinkly balls, then date an alcoholic like you, then left. I mean, seriously, I can understand being shocked with me dating an older guy, but is it that big of an issue? I didn't realize that dating an older man was so extremely disgusting. Teenagers obsessed with looks make me sick. I hope the realize i do not intend on being nice to them until they apologize. Their behavior was completely uncalled for. I'm not just going to sit their and be made fun of.

In other news, going out tonight with Chris and JoAnne for our weekly date. I have tons of work to do, so this should be interesting. I'll prolly leave early, though. I want to run some tonight before bedtime. I totally want to get back into my routine. Get back and get toned.

be good guys